School starts in about a month, and I’m having doubts about whether or not it’s right for me to go back.
Last semester was…difficult–definitely the worst I’ve had in college. I had a 3.94 going into it and wound up failing a couple of classes. My school has the option to apply for retroactive withdrawal under the presence of acute medical conditions, and while I have two exceptionally supportive letters written by doctors, I’m stuck on writing mine.
It shouldn’t be a challenging letter to write. My writing about myself is the easiest I do, and the expectations of the letter are clearly outlined. My psychiatrists have already mapped out the timeline of my hospital, ER, and outpatient visits as well as the state of my health. I don’t have to prove anything; I just have to explain.
It’s not hard, but I’m struggling. If writing this simple letter is this much of a challenge, how can I reasonably expect myself to be able to enroll and succeed in classes?
At what point do I know I’m ready? I’ve figured out what that point is in the opposite situation, but from here? I’m stuck. I’m trying to be responsible about this. It’s easy to be cautions, but being reasonable is a different story.
Hi Mandy: Is this a new post? Are you talking about returning to school in January? I’m sorry your last semester was so difficult. Did you room with someone again? Are you in the English department? Sorry, but I’m afraid I have more questions than answers at this point. But for whatever it’s worth, I really hope you return to school. You’re so gifted. You have so much to live for. Wouldn’t NOT going back to school mean another cycle of decline? Although I don’t know what you’ve gone through in the past couple of years, I can’t iimagine that giving up on college could be therapeutic or restorative. Everything has consequences — and the consequences of succumbing to fears and concerns about returning to college seem from this distance to have high damage potential. Please try hard to be “reasonable,” though I can imagine how hard it must be. You’re in my thoughts and prayers. David Holmberg —– From: Starting to Surface To: berg786@comcast.net Sent: Monday, November 26, 2012 10:38 PM Subject: [New post] Back To School?
mindfulmandy posted: “School starts in about a month, and I’m having doubts about whether or not it’s right for me to go back. Last semester was…difficult–definitely the worst I’ve had in college. I had a 3.94 going into it and wound up failing a couple of classes. My sc”